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Hey Blog. It’s been a while, right?

In all honesty, over the last month I’ve not really known what to blog about. I’ve had so much going on in my life that I’d almost forgotten I had a blog. When I started this blog, I thought I’d be writing every week, talking about the trials and tribulations of my life. In actual fact, this has acted as a diary almost, for me to write when I feel like writing. When I need to get out how I’m feeling. It’s been a therapy for me. I don’t want to write for the sake of writing, I want to write when I really have something to say. Which is now.

Last week, I lost my dear granddad. It was, and still is, devastating. I’ve gone through various emotions; questioning why I didn’t visit him more often when I had the chance. I’ve been beating myself up about it, going through all of the ‘what if’s’ but ultimately nothing is going to bring him back and that’s something I need to accept.

Whilst I’ve spent the last week thinking about things, it’s given me a big fat Life-is-too-short slap in the face. I’ve always been an over thinker, and I’ve spent far too much time caring about things that don’t matter. I’ve let things get to me when I shouldn’t of. I’ve held on to grudges for no real reason. I’ve felt anger towards people that don’t matter. I’ve lost the meaning of life.

We may not be able to control what happens in our lives, but we can control how we deal with things. We can control how we feel about things. We can dwell on the past, or we can let things go. We can do things we don’t want to do because we think it’s what we should be doing, or we can take charge and do what we really want to do.

Happiness is what YOU make it. If you know you’re about to do something you don’t want to do, think about the situation and see if you can change it? One thing I’ve always listened to is my gut. I know if I don’t want to do something and I’ve got quite good at recognising this and doing something about it.

When I think about what really makes me happy in life, it all boils down to family and friends. It’s not possessions that bring true happiness, its people. I’ve previously blogged about how I became quite material in that I’d buy things to make me happy, but that actually that was a temporary feeling that disappeared not long after.

Spending time with family makes me happy.

Spending time with friends makes me happy.

Singing makes me happy.

Sunshine makes me happy.

The common theme? That these things cost nothing.

I’m not sure when I’ll blog next, but for now I’m off to focus on what matters most.

Love to you all,

L

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